Almost Is Never Enough | Ariana Grande
If I could change the world overnight
There’d be no such thing as goodbye
You’d be standing right where you were
And we’d get the chance we deserve
As school is quickly approaching, I can’t help but have a lot of doubts and insecurities about the upcoming quarter and year to come. This is my last year.. And UCR has become my home for the past 5-6 years. In truth, I don’t want to leave. Granted I am going to do everything possible to not go back.. But there is a 50/50 chance that I might have to go back home to Northern California (more like Central). And that thought really scares me.
This past year, I really found out so much about myself. I finally found a group of friends I can confide in. I finally know my own interests and hobbies. I finally know myself. I finally feel complete on my own. And I feel like.. In a way.. I’m being robbed of my revelation. Like my time has been cut short..
And when I finally feel complete on my own, I find this amazing person who compliments me. But I fear that Christopher and I… might not make it if I am thrown back to NorCal. I think that our friendship is stronger to where I know that the relationship aspect wouldn’t ruin it. I think.. But I don’t want us to be just friends.. I really feel as though we are robbed of our time together as a couple. And sometimes I feel it’s a bit unfair..
Fair would have been that we had started our relationship so much earlier so we could have had more time.. Fair would be having more time now.. Fair would be us being in closer proximity..
Sigh. And this is only one insecurity.